Have you ever put money into a vending machine and it popped out the wrong treat? That's how I feel at times with God. Putting in the correct currency: time, affections, my heart but getting in return something not quite expected. It takes a lot of time and investment to weild this heart of mine. I'm so glad that God is not like the vending machine or the ice cream man dispensing to us EXACTLY what our eyes desire. It's so hard to find the convergence of being filled and lacking, but finding satisfaction as Paul speaks of. I choose to be hopeful as God is still continually growing something in me. This process is painful but worth every nickel and dime that I've dropped in. I've adopted a new quote from a nun who had walked many years with Christ. She said," When love and duty come together GRACE abides in you." This life I live is not just for me. It is for the things that God desires to birth. Lord, teach me how to walk the line of being hopeful (waiting with confident expectation) but not selfish. To live a life of passionate love and duty. Manifest your grace in and through me.
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January 14, 2008
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2 comments:
this is a fabulous analogy, Laynee. I really love it. it is a daily choice to honor and live with the perspective that God is still working even when not seen (hopeful) and giving your life away even when you'd like to be selfish.
with that, i am hopeful and selfish that you'll come to budapest. he he. I wish I could pay your way....hmmmm. well, i'm believing you can pay off your debts and come see me this year in Budapest. I may or may not be here after 2009.
What if you put up a jar for raising support for me? You guys pay for half way and I'll pay the rest!
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