To the Ladies

A charge to myself as well as all of the women out there:

As I was in a moment of worship this week it struck me how much I don't know the Fathers love. How much I claim to know who He is and yet cleave on to what my internal dialogue or the world around me would tell me about myself. I was emboldened in that moment and said God I no longer want to carry these lies. I no longer want to walk out fear, inadequecies and anxiety about the future. I'm leaving this mentality right here in this auditorium and when I walk out those doors I'm sure that there will be moments of resurgence, but I believe you've given me the strength to walk above this.

Where I'm going with this is that I've been observing lately the body language and conduct in which women deal with eachother. Whether young, old, middle aged we all (emphasized because there are exceptions to the rule)pretty much deal with eachother similarly. If you observe a group of men who just met eachother there is such an ease to jumping into the conversation, drinking a beer together, having some laughs etc. With women it's almost an initiation process into a tribe. Most of the time they're stand offish, squirmy about opening up and full of insecurity.
We as females if we let our insecurities/fears get in the way we will forfeit ourselves from from receiving from the older generation and be frozen in our tracks from giving to the younger generation. I so get caught up in my inadequicies that I can see nothing else. We MUST see past our exterior to those placed before us.

We can stand around all day long and complain about the elders before us who never imparted to us (which is a sad ordeal) or we can take a stand and say this must be stopped. We are called to the same charge that the older generation had placed before them. Will we stand and pour out or will we be self centered? We may have not been nurtured the way that we would of liked, but God is still calling us to be mothers, daughters and sisters. If this model isn't displayed sometime it will always be a eutopian idea in our mind, never manifested around us to change the perspectives of the people we are drawn to impart to. Lord, help us. Make us into more of the women that you want us to be. Open up our eyes not only to grasp the idea of how much you love us, but how much you want to love on others through us.