So, as many of you know I did not get the position that I was so ardently believing for. It has been a challenging test for me to really be like Abraham in this season of life. Abraham looking in the natural saw his body as good as dead; but in the spiritual realm he knew what God had promised him and he could not give up on hope. The Bible says, "Hope deferred makes the heart grow sick." I think I'm starting to understand what that means from the last couple years of my life. It seems like the never ending disappointments could surely become my reality if I let them. Is reality what we see? I would not take back these two-three years because they have really caused my roots to grow deeply in Christ,though I wish I had less of a cynical perspective on things. My hope is that the zealousness/fire of my faith when I first came to know Christ would be sistered with the maturity/pragmantic features of what God has revealed in these current times.
I hope against all odds.
I hope for God to be glorified in me.
I hope for the dreams in my heart to be birthed into the natural.
I hope in Gods character that He is who He says He is.
Not my will but yours Father.
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April 25, 2008
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3 comments:
Laynie, I'm sorry about the position not coming through. Definitely keep hoping and trusting in God. He is faithful and he knows what he's after and what he's doing. You're a tremendous blessing to me and to many around you! Be encouraged today in knowing that God is for you.
It's absolutely and completely obvious, Layne, that your roots are not only going deeper but they are spreading to bring life to others. You may not see it but I sure do. I have found that when I'm heartbroken and disappointed, God is closest to me in those moments. I also find out later that the thing I was hoping and believing for was not God's best. He will place you where the light will shine the brightest.....it truly is the darkness before the dawn.
Love you girl.
Jen
it sucks when we hope to get something and it doesnt come through. It just makes us want to roll up in a ball and die...but what can man do but cry out to his creator for mercy.
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